The Blue Eagle

by Jason Guy Smiley

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Dedicated to the memory of Elizabeth “Tooty” Robinson, my grandmother, who as a young woman sang in a dive bar called The Blue Eagle.

Dedicated also to a personal hero, without his words of encouragement this record would have never happened. Never Forget Tony Sly.

And to my friends. My friends have always been the best of me. When I decided to do a "solo" record with a full band, my friends climbed
out of the woodwork to appear on this album. When you are reading the credits, it's not just a list of musicians, it's a list that reflects
the support of some of the best people and players that I know. Without them this record would not have been possible. It is not likely
I could adequately show my gratitude, but let the record show that I offer my eternal and most heartfelt thanks to them all.

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released April 1, 2014

Credits:

Jason Guy Smiley - Vocals/Rhythm Guitar
Anthony Stubelek - Lead Guitar
Vince Jarocki - Drums
Brian Murphy - Bass
Jessica Holloway - Keys/Organ

Additional Vocals:
Lydia Nichols
Emily Moran

Additional Guitars:
James “JR” Manning
Damian “The Damester” Fedorko

“Hidden In Your Aorta Is A Way For Me
To Win You Back” appears in The Tenth Song
courtesy of (and is recited by) Lora Mathis

Recorded at Rockstudio in Brunswick, GA
Produced by Anthony Stubelek

Artwork by Karl Christian Krumpholz

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Jason Guy Smiley Gainesville, Florida

After 12 years in punk band Midget Fan Club, Jason Guy Smiley has struck out on his own. Jason is now covering his favorite punk rock songs and writing new original material.

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Track Name: If A Train Leaves
They say that to get distance
Just take rate by time
But how far do you have to go
To say you were alive?

If two trains leave the station
From distant cities
One's goin’ fast, one's goin’ slow
How soon will they meet?

But life is not as simple
As a straight line railroad track
And it's never fun to wonder
If you're ever comin’ back

If it leaves westbound at half past three
How long will it take before you hate me
Whoa whoa whoa if a train leaves
If a train leaves

They say that to find speed
Divide distance by time
Come on, let's see how fast we leave
Each other behind

If two trains leave the station
And they're going separate ways
Do you think they miss each other
And hope for better days?

Got plenty of time to drink
Just rollin’ on down the line
Got too much time to think
When something's on your mind

If it leaves westbound at half past three
How long will it take before you hate me
Whoa whoa whoa if a train leaves
If a train leaves
Track Name: Wishful Drinking (#drinkingfromfruit)
It's too late to think 
So i'll grab the rum
And fix myself a drink 

I’m with all my friends 
And I think we all know just how
This night ends

And it's wishful drinking on a saturday night 
It’s just one more way that we can 
Find a reason to fight 
They say that I’m just thinkin’ wishfully 
But I know that I been drinkin’ recklessly 
When it's time for bed 
I should just shut off the light 
But it's wishful drinkin’ 
On a Saturday night

There's bottles strewn
And it looks like a bomb went off
In this hotel room

The point's made moot
So I’ll grab a pineapple
Do some drinking from fruit

And it's wishful drinking on a saturday night 
It’s just one more way that we can 
Find a reason to fight 
They say that I’m just thinkin’ wishfully 
But I know that I been drinkin’ recklessly 
When it's time for bed 
I should just shut off the light 
But it's wishful drinkin’ 
On a Saturday night
Track Name: It's Not The Heat
On a night time drive
With the windows down
Air so thick it hangs off your fingertips
As you drive around

I’m lookin’ for love
I’ll take what I can get
I just keep finding kisses that taste
Like beer and cigarettes

I’ve had enough
Oh, I can't get enough
But I’ve had enough
Cause this isn't love

I’ve spent all my life
Just running from things
Now I’ll fly away
On the blue eagle's wing

Said we'd get what we deserve
Then made it sound like a threat
We'd get the credit we're due
But all we got is the debt

I’ve had enough
Oh, I can't get enough
But I’ve had enough
Cause this isn't love

You'll sleep so soundly
While your ears ring tonight
It's just the echo of the show in your head
And the gleam of the bright lights
In your eyes

I’ve had enough
Oh, I can't get enough
But I’ve had enough
Cause this isn't love

This isn't love
Track Name: Erin Jordan
We were lying on a blanket, by the ocean
She looked deep into my eyes
We were about to start making out
When my cell phone rang
She turned it off and said way to kill the vibe

She told me she's an artist and a writer
Or at least she says she is
Her music has a needle scratch
Her writing has a typewriter clack
It's hard not to fall in love with someone
As cool as this

We spent our summer days just how you'd guess.
She really is the best, I checked
We spent our summer nights having fights
eating pizza and having sex

But mostly having sex

She cooked me dinner, made the coffee
Even though she prefers tea
We laid around hanging out on the couch
And she read me some Bukowski

She said "I like him and Jack Kerouac,
But neither of them can swear as well as me"
My lips were dry, but hers were wet with wine
So we pressed them together, obviously

I spent my summer days with my friends, recordin’
Writing songs about my heart aflame
I spent my summer nights with Erin Jordan
But she don't know my name

She don't know my name
Track Name: I Was Ready
I was ready
To sing you every love song
But instead
I’ll just sing this one about how you've gone

Every good plan
It goes astray
We said so many words
But I had breath to waste

I was ready
To sit up with you again all night
But instead
I’ll be the only one in the morning light

The empty bottle
Next to me on the floor
Tells me that you were here
But you're not here any more but

I was ready
I was ready just in case
You know I’d do anything on a dare
But you know that i always came prepared cause

I was ready
To drop the needle into the groove
But instead
I’ll listen to this song without you

I’m lost in the dark
Without a match
I’m repeating myself
Like a record with a scratch but

I was ready
I was ready any time
I was waitin’ up for a call or a text
From you to say you'd take me away from this mess
Track Name: Out Of The Picture
When I look back on my time here
I wish I had spent it more wise, dear
I wish that I could say I had tried
But you don't need a macro lens
You don't need to zoom in
To see a flaw that's 10 miles wide

Oh, well I slipped right out of focus
I’m becoming bokeh, my friend
Well, I fucked it up this time
And I don't think your angle's wide enough
To fit me in your frame again

She said “I think that you should know
To dial down your ISO
Cause I’m sure you're making too much noise
It ain't grainy or vintage
I swear every single image
Is just making me more and more annoyed"

Oh, I slipped right out of focus
I’m becoming bokeh, my friend
Well, I fucked it up this time
And I don't think your angle's wide enough
To fit me in your frame again

I need to find some balance
Cause everything is getting blown out
And if you need me to leave
I don't need to be shown out
Just increase the aperture
Lower the f-stop number
Push the button and watch me as...

I slip right out of focus
I’m becoming bokeh, my friend
Well, I fucked it up this time
And I don't think your angle's wide enough
To fit me in your frame again
Track Name: Wilfred's Law
I walked away from what was comfortable
I walked away from what I knew
I walked away from the things that made me happy
And I walked away from you

I had to figure some things out
I moved into a garage in the backyard
Of my ex-girlfriend's sister's house

You used to say someone would save me
Come along and bail me out
I used to think that was just jealousy
But now I see that
You're scared no one is coming
To save you from yourself

I hadn't felt like myself in months
I drove my car right off the road one night
And as I walked away from the smoking wreck
I got the feeling, that everything would be all right

I had to take some time for myself
I left our house in Connecticut
And I headed south

You used to say someone would save me
Come along and bail me out
I used to think that was just jealousy
But now I see that
You're scared no one is coming
To save you from yourself

From yourself
Track Name: She Who Will Not Be Named
You were a poison
And I was a knife
For everything you hid
I drug something to light

You were a rock
And I was a hard place
For everything you did behind my back
I threw something in your face

And I’d have been better off
If you’d have never come my way
Because these days I won’t
Even say your name, oh no

You were the powder keg
And I was the spark
It turned out that you were the heel
And I was your mark

I was the torch
And you were the falling rain
But instead of just putting me out
You caused me pain

And I don’t think I ever
Need to be around anyone like you
Someone who doesn’t see people as people
Just tools she can use

And I’d have been better off
If you had never come my way
Because these days I can’t even
Say your name, oh no
Track Name: Yeah. Well. Is Life.
I learned my lesson the hard way
About being nice to you
And repeating that mistake
Is something I will never ever do
“Sometimes it works really good.
Sometimes it gets too confused to tell."
That sounds like me, just kidding
I never really worked very well

I asked her what I could do better
And her list was like a myriad
And I know she's angry
Because every text is just one word then a period

Where does the hurt end?
She said no where
Where does the hurt end?
Does anybody care
Could you go on the rest of your life without it?
If you're honest you know you'd say you doubt it

Well it's hot in september
Do you remember where we were?
And the heat of the summer
Doesn't break as easily as her
I can take the hint
And as the summer turns to fall
We can make it like this never
Ever happened at all

I said “I hope you feel better"
And I got no reply
But I really don't need
An explanation why

Where does the hurt end?
She said no where
Where does the hurt end?
Does anybody care
Could you go on the rest of your life without it?
If you're honest you know you'd say you doubt it
And just this once
If you ever get the nerve
Take this sand and
Build the castle you deserve
Track Name: The Tenth Song
You were innocent
When the bullets flew
I’m sorry you had to endure
The way that I was abused
And it made me crazy
And it made me sad
You deserved more than I gave you
You deserved more than I had

You were my whole world
You were my everything
You were my morning sun
You were every evening
But I went away
And you were taken away
And now I’ve lost things
I can't bring myself to say

I’ll never be sure what happened
I’ll never know the truth
I could never make myself understand
What it's like to be you
It would take far too long
To count all the times
That you truly hurt me
Then made me apologize

You were my only thought
You were all I could see
In my search for you
All I lost was me
But you sent me away
So I pushed you away
And now I’ve lost things
I can't bring myself to say

Maybe I have been wrong in spending my nights pouring over words
Looking for an explanation as to why I have a werewolf heart
That turns wild beneath a full moon
Instead, perhaps I should use the sentences you mumble before waking
As a guide to the hollow beating in your chest
So I may search your arteries for a way
To stop having “I love you” mean “I’m sorry”

Perhaps a way out of this forest and back to you
Is graffitied in your pulmonary veins
If you see a wildfire ablaze in the distance
Know that I have sacrificed myself in a final grand attempt
To prove to you that I care.

But I went away
(You were my whole world)
And you were taken away
(You were my everything)
And now I’ve lost things
(You were my morning sun)
I can't bring myself to say